Konbanwa! Minnamono! (good evening everyone!) how has the week been for you all? i’m just doing some work now so I doubt there will be much to say right now but what the hey! might as well say something right? This is my second blog post in this blog and after reading a few of my friend’s blogs, I must say, I really suck at writing blogs! I mean I have to actually squeeze every ounce of idea i have in me just to write the first blog and for everyone else it seems so easy! i can write essays that is way too easy for me but when you ask me to write a blog, you might as well ask me to jump of a building and see the results… hehe what a thing to say and right when we’re in the middle of work too…

well just for the heck of it, what have you guys been up to lately? i don really hear from anyone at all (in fact i haven’t heard from anyone at all) so i have guess that you all are having a great weekend… actually now that i have a chance to say this i might as well just get it over and done with.

to NP FMS DVFX T1A1: i would like to formally apologize about my character. i know its not something you expect to see coming from someone like me (maybe you do but most people say they don’t). i’m a horrible vulgar mouth, im obnoxious, im very loud and im willing to bet im very creepy at times such that you don’t feel comfortable being around me. there are alot more issues with me im sure and as the year passes you may just get unlucky enough to see them all show themselves. if you have not seen any of these flaws showing their ugly faces then i suggest you don’t try to find them because in truth, im a horrible person. what you have seen thus far is just a lie. when half a year passes or when june starts you will most probably start seeing some of the ugly things my true nature is capable of. because of all this, i’ve become unable to have actual friends in fact i tend to end up hurting everyone around me just by being who i really am…

i want you all to know this now because the last time i was unable to prevent this disaster from happening i lost all of my friends. i even hurt my old primary school friend enough to lose her. i had become too complacent with the life i had come to enjoy with them and as a result before i realised it, that monster had appeared again which cause me to lose my best friend in sec 4. i was trying to help patch things up between him and his half gf but my good intentions were received the wrong way when he saw me talking to the girl about the issue over lunch. as a result he ended up hating me. honestly i don’t blame him, i still blame myself for what happened (hafidz you know the girl)

even now the feelings have not left and now as a result, i have become only a reliant, someone who is only good when needed. when not needed i become a nuisance even when i try not to. you all must be thinking by now that im just writing this because i’m looking for attention, that was what they told me the day i lost them all and seriously i don’t care anymore about it. i have been a overly hyper active boy since young and very talkative too plus very dramatic at the same time so i wont ask you to believe what you are reading but i really want to just i guess give you the heads up on what to expect from me…i know myself better than anyone and knowing that fact i know that sooner or later, i will end up being hated. im sorry for making you all read something so depressing (you must have been expecting something more upbeat and happy i’ll bet) but if i don’t tell you all this now, im sure that the events that occured during my sec 4 year will repeat themselves again…

im saying all of this because i don’t want you all to say ‘i never thought you could be this way’ or ‘what a horrible person you really are’ or ‘how can you live your life like that?’ these are just a few of the many things said to me before and the last one came from a teacher too…

well enough of this depressing waste of your time tale, i hope you all enjoy your weekend and i’ll see you all at school soon! WAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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