Konnichiwa! Minnamono! here we are now after about some few weeks of accessing this blog we have finally come down to the last song… it has been quite a long while since we started and now here we are at the end of the his journey of lessons and writing stories… according to information, we are now gonna be starting the storyboard lessons after the 2 week break that starts in 15 minutes… hahahahahahahaha… what a joke… the life I lived here in this side of the world has been an exciting and extremely enjoyable one. I seriously have no idea what else to say now… after all the time I have spent with my class, I have successfully accomplished the one mission I solely wished could never be completed. Now I am all alone with nothing left but suffering and misery as the events that occurred last time repeat itself once more… I don’t understand why… Why is the real me so hated by everyone around me? So what if i’m a loose cannon who does nothing more than shoot vulgarities like a machine gun? So what if i’m a pathetic moody existence who looks sad all the time? Everyone tells me to be myself, yet why when I really do be myself, everyone resents and rejects me? I just don’t understand what on Earth everyone wants me to be anymore. Is the Eden I fought so hard to create, the Eden where I am accepted for who I really am nothing more than a lie? Well since this will most probably be the last time I write in this blog, I just want to say that I have enjoyed the time I was able to spend in this blog. I was able to face an old evil deep in my heart and move on with it. So I want to say thanks for the happy moments and for everything Leslie. Thanks to you and this blog I can now take another step forward and work towards my goal.
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Konnichiwa Minnamono! Genki-desuka? today we are at the school’s makan place having a late lunch and a early dinner while at the same time talking to one of my classmates via facebook! apparently im a very ramdom person according to this person… random is putting up a picture that has no meaning whatsoever or smsing a classmate and all that is on the message is sarakoube… now that’s random… by the way why somone else is staring at me type i will not know but apparently she wants to know the password to another classmate’s Mac… and it works… WOW! i feel so awesome! ok i lied. i feel like GODDAMM MOTHER FUCKING CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that’s not true either… WOW! i don’t know what to feel! oh well nevermind… i’ll just look up the comments that Leslie has left for my blog post… everything seems so dead now… and i seem to be writing alot more [...] then i’m supposed to… well nothing matters anymore… everything that i have spent my entire life for has been taken away from me and the bonds i have made with everyone seem to be waning bit by bit such that i don’t even know what to believe in anymore… But that’s enough whining about how i willingly sacrificed my soul for something that held no meaning and was a complete waste of my time and life too… i suddenly want to attach a photo (or a few) of the last few things that make me smile… here they are in some gallery… well nevermind then… hey im in it too! look out for me! ok that’s all for this time… im just gonna be random now… MADA DENE MINNAMONO!
OHAIYOGOSAIMASU! i say this because you should know by now that this was written on the morning of mother’s day… well just lazing around thinking about this weeks homework while eating my mother’s coffee cake for her when i realised just how bad the bad the situation has become. the level of homework received has increased at quite an alarming rate as each week passes by like that… and now because of the way things have worked out, we now have quite a list of things to take of and homework is just the start… the time is slowly coming for all the cards to be played and i need to carefully plan my moves since the situation brought about alot more than i had anticipated since the last time the conditions have changed so every move counts…
though i have to say… it is getting quite difficult to plan. lately all my plans have been going up in smoke and the best part of it all is that once the plan goes kaboom, the repercussions are beyond expectations… its getting ffrustrating since there are things that i actually need to work out every once in a while but do they? NO! i have to watch in horror as they blow away like ash in the wind… well before i end up ranting, i’ll stop here. happy mother’s day and see you all next week!
Konbanwa! Minnamono! (good evening everyone!) how has the week been for you all? i’m just doing some work now so I doubt there will be much to say right now but what the hey! might as well say something right? This is my second blog post in this blog and after reading a few of my friend’s blogs, I must say, I really suck at writing blogs! I mean I have to actually squeeze every ounce of idea i have in me just to write the first blog and for everyone else it seems so easy! i can write essays that is way too easy for me but when you ask me to write a blog, you might as well ask me to jump of a building and see the results… hehe what a thing to say and right when we’re in the middle of work too…
well just for the heck of it, what have you guys been up to lately? i don really hear from anyone at all (in fact i haven’t heard from anyone at all) so i have guess that you all are having a great weekend… actually now that i have a chance to say this i might as well just get it over and done with.
to NP FMS DVFX T1A1: i would like to formally apologize about my character. i know its not something you expect to see coming from someone like me (maybe you do but most people say they don’t). i’m a horrible vulgar mouth, im obnoxious, im very loud and im willing to bet im very creepy at times such that you don’t feel comfortable being around me. there are alot more issues with me im sure and as the year passes you may just get unlucky enough to see them all show themselves. if you have not seen any of these flaws showing their ugly faces then i suggest you don’t try to find them because in truth, im a horrible person. what you have seen thus far is just a lie. when half a year passes or when june starts you will most probably start seeing some of the ugly things my true nature is capable of. because of all this, i’ve become unable to have actual friends in fact i tend to end up hurting everyone around me just by being who i really am…
i want you all to know this now because the last time i was unable to prevent this disaster from happening i lost all of my friends. i even hurt my old primary school friend enough to lose her. i had become too complacent with the life i had come to enjoy with them and as a result before i realised it, that monster had appeared again which cause me to lose my best friend in sec 4. i was trying to help patch things up between him and his half gf but my good intentions were received the wrong way when he saw me talking to the girl about the issue over lunch. as a result he ended up hating me. honestly i don’t blame him, i still blame myself for what happened (hafidz you know the girl)
even now the feelings have not left and now as a result, i have become only a reliant, someone who is only good when needed. when not needed i become a nuisance even when i try not to. you all must be thinking by now that im just writing this because i’m looking for attention, that was what they told me the day i lost them all and seriously i don’t care anymore about it. i have been a overly hyper active boy since young and very talkative too plus very dramatic at the same time so i wont ask you to believe what you are reading but i really want to just i guess give you the heads up on what to expect from me…i know myself better than anyone and knowing that fact i know that sooner or later, i will end up being hated. im sorry for making you all read something so depressing (you must have been expecting something more upbeat and happy i’ll bet) but if i don’t tell you all this now, im sure that the events that occured during my sec 4 year will repeat themselves again…
im saying all of this because i don’t want you all to say ‘i never thought you could be this way’ or ‘what a horrible person you really are’ or ‘how can you live your life like that?’ these are just a few of the many things said to me before and the last one came from a teacher too…
well enough of this depressing waste of your time tale, i hope you all enjoy your weekend and i’ll see you all at school soon! WAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
konnichiwa! watashiwa Yuuji-desu! (good afternoon! my name is Eugene!) this is my first ever post on my first ever real blog (sort-off). now i have had similar blogs in primary school and secondary school but all of those were not as extensively used as compared to how much this one will be (at least that’s what i’m hoping for). i know what you must be thinking, what a way to start a blog… well excuse me for not blogging as much as you must do then… i don’t really know how to use a blog that is why i stay away from it (is that even a correct reason?) well anyway, i guess the world will be hearing more about my story here on wordpress very soon and i hope mine will be a blast! until then… please fell free to look me up (assuming you know where to find me that is… what? im not giving you my information, you’ll have to find that out on your own) thanks and its nice to meet you all. WAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
